Woke up at 8:30 am, and this was the view that greeted me earlier – just marvelous! You can just imagine the happiness I felt, and the smile it brought to my dopey face. Breathtaking. I then grabbed a cup of hot coffee, a folding chair, sat down, and enjoyed a good half hour enjoying the elegance of my orchids lovely blooms. My mind was so at peace, while I sat there appreciating the beauty that surrounds me. Simply amazing!
Yes, I’m still here! To all the peeps that’s been asking about my whereabouts.
And yes, I’ve been hiding away from the crowd. G-U-I-L-T-Y!
Why? I’ve been hating lately. I figured, I may as well keep the unpleasant remarks to myself.
Save me the embarrassment, right?
Nonetheless, I am fine. Perfectly fine!
For a moment, I’ve been feeling perplexed. But I may finally be getting my groove back.
I’m kind of off the beat, but I’m starting to get the feel of the rhythm.
Only a matter of time, and I’ll be my full self.
Doing the Harlem Shake!
You don’t know how many times I’ve asked myself again and again. If I should agree to see him. But in the end I’ve figured out – what do I have to lose? [ Besides my self respect and the very last ounce of dignity I have left ] Right? I then grabbed my phone, texted him saying that I’ll meet him at the cafe nearby at 11 am. I got there five minutes early, and there he is in all his handsomeness, smiling at me.
In closing, I said that I do accept his apology. But I could not allow us to be friends – at least not now. He smiled, held my hand one last time, and I smiled back. I then walked out of the cafe, without looking back. Somehow, I felt good.
I couldn’t seem to wrap my head around it. And in a way I’m impress at myself at how I manage the situation.
How, you asked? I’m not sure. I guess lots of time alone and some needed sleep.
Yes, that’s it – sleep on it!
Guess, I didn’t asked the right questions or maybe I just didn’t care at all. But then I can’t feel guilty about something, I didn’t know.
I’ve been bitten by the green bug. Come see me in my garden sometime!
I’ve wanted this to happen & have rehearsed the lines over & over in my head. And here we are at arms reach, standing in the same line at the grocery store, giving each other a glimpse, a smile. Yet the words won’t come out!
He claims he did me wrong. But I have yet to hear the words – I’m sorry. Guess, he never heard of the word humility?