I don’t usually pay that much attention to myself. But since a friend brought it up over lunch, one time – on how angry and temperamental I’ve been lately. I started listening to myself speak and observing how I would react to certain things, and it’s true. I have turned into a virulent and rude person. Even I am horrified at myself and my indecorous ways!
I absolutely have no idea what made me into this awful being. And I am in no way proud of my behavior, and I won’t make any excuses for it. There is a reason or probably plenty of reasons why I am the way I am now. And I tried to heal myself – made a list, trial and error, regression, solitude, yoga, group therapy and self help books. I did what I can and I gave it my best, but it didn’t work. I am desperate for help, and certain things have to be done soon before this consumes me. I think it’s time for the professionals to step in.
*hugs*
Identifying the problem is the first and most important step. Praying with you Nell.
thank you, hazel. that was very sweet and kind of you. be rest assured that i’m doing okay. been to my therapist quite a few times now and working on some cognitive exercises. hopefully, in no time – i will be well. thanks again, hugs!
At least you’re admitting it yourself, acceptance is very important. Now the rest is all up to you; it’s just all in your head! Try to control your emotions and thoughts. Only “YOU” have the power and ability to change, Good luck!!! And I am sure everything will be just OK! 🙂
LHEY
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thank you, lhey. thanks for the kind and encouraging words. i am doing much better now, been to my therapist twice. and we seem to be hitting off just fine. i’m taking it one step at a time, that’s my new mantra. overwhelming myself would be a disaster (base on experience). baby steps, seems to be the perfect way to handle this. thanks for the blog visit!