New Found Self

For some reason, I haven’t had the compulsion to write an entry for my blog. I don’t know why? I’m perfectly fine, I’m not depressed or anything. I guess, I’m just uninspired. Either that or I’m just plain, lazy. Hahaha! Like I said, I am doing alright and having the time of my life. I’m actually loving it, being unemployed at all. This maybe my much needed break, from my non-stop and hectic life. You see, for the past twelve years since I started working. I haven’t had a break ever, besides week ends and holidays. And do we really call that a recess? Considering, there’s chores and errands we had to do on such times.

And so, this is how freedoms feels like. I am nobody’s slave, and I am the master of my own fate. I absolutely love every minute of it! There’s a bit of a downside to it though, but I don’t care. I maybe poor, but I am happy. I am living within my own means, and it’s great. It’s refreshing to take a sudden crash course in Finance and Budgeting. Not to mention, application of theories I learned in business school. Hahaha!

Eventually, this vacation will come to an end. That’s how life goes! Once all resources are gone, people need to go back out there and start busting there behinds again. And I’m not afraid, for it’s a reality I have to face. No guts, no glory, right? But, I am grateful. For I’ve been able to experience such happiness. I don’t want to say that I’m all cerebral and smart, but I’ve found new wisdom from all of these:

That life, if we keep chasing it, will drive us to death. So we may as well let go, sit still and let contentment come to us…

The Pacific

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4 comments

  1. hazel · November 14, 2008

    i know! *hugs* enjoy the me time while you still can 🙂 i wish i had the same guts as you.

  2. sardonicnell · November 14, 2008

    thank you, HAZEL. i will definitely enjoy every minute of my so called, freedom. and you must remember, anyone can do what i did 😉

  3. iris · November 20, 2008

    good for you nell. sarap ng feeling siguro ng walang obligasyon sa trabaho! hehe. talagang kailangan naman yang break every once in a while. felt like that too just recently. i felt sooo uninspired! i had to let it go. and not blog or whatever for a few days. i cried it out, blah blah. but then again iba naman pinanggagalingan ko 🙂 at least you’re happy. it’s easier to come back that way. hugs nell!

  4. sardonicnell · November 21, 2008

    hello IRIS, thank you for your kind comment. and i hope you’re feeling much better now. you know it’s funny that i grew up believing that money will give me everything i want. and yet, when i had some – i was dumbfounded! it didn’t give me anything at all, besides the feeling of stability. and yet, i am grateful for i count that as a blessing. but now that i am almost penniless, i feel richer. i found joy, i found contentment, i found myself and i found wisdom. i got more than i can wish for 😉

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