Gotta Have Faith

These past couple weeks have been truly awful. From my Mom’s diagnosis of Stage III Breast Cancer, to losing the home that I’ve invested two darn years of hard labour. Add to that my life’s savings that’s going down the drain. Truly, it’s been down pouring defeat, misfortune, disasters and adversities. But I couldn’t find myself crying in  despair or wallowing in bad fate, my family needs me now more than ever. F*ck my pride and the tangible possessions I am about to lose! Our focus now should be Mom and her battle with breast cancer. I’d like to give the very last drop of strength and hope I have left, on someone who truly needs it.

Monday morning, Mom and I went to her Oncologist and Surgeon appointment. I was finally able to convince her to pursue possible surgery, chemotherapy or radiation treatment. Our conversation with both doctors went well, and I finally discovered the severity of my mother’s illness. I think I understand now, why she kept it a secret for sometime now. Guess she didn’t want us crying at her expense, and wanted to spare us from the pain of her current health condition.

It has been one hell of an emotional roller coaster for me and the family. And thank heavens, we are still alive and kicking ass. We are continously praying for divine healing, that the Lord would show mercy upon us. Things are tight and our hearts, feeble from time to time. But I know that things can only get better from here. For as long as we have faith…

Never Give Up

The eagle like the mighty phoenix
emerges from the ashes
bruised, but not beaten
stronger than ever
Out of the rubble of destruction
Seeds of hope
Stories of courage
Heroes emerge




  1. Thess · June 6, 2008

    Your mom seems to be a strong lady, Nell, if she was able to keep this sad news from you guys… so yes, let’s continue praying for her…

    lots of love and prayers from Holland.

    maraming salamat, sis thess. all the love and prayers have helped us immensely. thanks to kindhearted friends like you. love yah and God bless 😀

  2. bw · June 6, 2008

    We will pray for your mom’s complete recovery bro. That’s life, sometimes we are given mighty challenges but we must not lose hope. God bless…

    thanks bw, we have always been the hopeful kind of people. pero minsan talaga eh di maiwasan ang ma-down. as my mentor once said — for as long as there is life, there is hope, and where there is hope, there is God. dba? alam namin na di kami pababayaan ng nasa Itaas 😉

  3. iris · June 7, 2008

    hi nell, hope your mom recovers well and soon. i can only imagine how hard it is for you, but it’s said that God never gives us a challenge we cannot handle. my prayers are with your mom and your family. hugs!

    thank you, iris. it’s been one hell of a ride for the family, parang emotional roller coaster. and we’re trying our best to hold on to our faith. thanks for all the love and prayers 😀

  4. Leap of Faith! · June 8, 2008

    Nell, continue to hold on to your faith. Remain strong and I’m sure you will weather the storm. We continue to pray for your mom and your whole family.

    maraming salamat, keith. we’ve always been hopeful that God would listen to our prayers and heal mom from her illness. thanks for all the love, concern and your guys friendship. it has helped us tremendously during troubling times 😀

  5. dang · June 10, 2008

    trust in God at all times! Here’s praying for your mom and you! Malalagpasan ninyo ito, by God’s grace! Keep believing! Walang imposible ke Lord!

    thank you, dang. thanks for all the love and prayers 🙂

  6. nina · June 10, 2008

    Hey, feel down. Just hang on and keep on praying. Material things are replaceable and money can be earned.

    Our firend’s wife had stage III cancer and she is well now. I would like to share Cory Quirino’s article about alternative treatment to Cancer.

    thanks for the kind words and for sharing this site, nina. mom’s been trying some natural and homeopathic treatments for quite sometime now. and she’s been a vegetarian since i can remember. really hoping and praying that God would grant us our wish, to heal mom’s illness and give her the extension she’s been asking for. so she can see her her grandchildren live there life to the fullest, that’s every lola’s dream. dba? thanks for all the love and prayers 😀

  7. nina · June 10, 2008

    My prayers are with you and with your mom!

    thanks so much, nina 😀

  8. maiomai · June 10, 2008

    My thoughts are with your mom and you Nell. Ya, it is really an eye opener. Be strong…

    thank you, mai. it’s been a tough year for all of us, but we are hoping for a miracle to happen. as mom would say, only God knows what lies for us in the future. dba? and again, thanks for the prayers and well wishes. God bless you, too 😉

  9. RiNo · June 14, 2008

    Hang on in there Nell. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family in this most difficult time.

    thanks so much, friendship. we are grateful for all the love and prayers. and sensya ka na if i wasn’t able to email you, just been busy packing stuff and coordinating mom’s treatment. hayaan mo friend, we’ll be able to chat din sometime soon. for now eh rain check muna ako hah, hehehe. thanks again and please keep in touch 😀

  10. munchkinmommy · June 17, 2008

    hi nell! i’m sorry i have not been able to visit your blog earlier. it’s only now that i realized you’ve been updating again since the 5th! naku, sorry talaga!

    i know how you and your family feel, nell. you very well know that. magkakaramay tayo. promise. 🙂 if there’s one thing I know, it’s that God hears and listens to our prayers. our moms are both strong and courageous women and i know they will win this battled. so many women before them have. and so will they. let’s keep the faith, nell. hugs to you my dear friend! mmmwah!

    thanks so much for the encouragement, weng. i really needed that at medyo nadedepress na naman ang beauty ko. paano naman, it’s days nalang before mom’s treatment and i cannot help but worry. i am hoping and praying for good things to happen. hayaan mo sis, i’ll do my best to keep up the faith and continously feel hopeful. God is merciful and he’ll hear our prayers. thanks again and i hope you had a wonderful week end 😀

  11. abby · June 18, 2008

    oh my, i was wondering where you’ve been lately… prayers for your mom’s speedy recovery arnelli, just keep the faith.

    magkwentuhan tayo ng mga hinagpis, tawagan kita mamaya…

    thank you, abby. medyo pre-occupied lang kami with mom’s treatment lately, and medyo limited ang time ko to blog. hayaan mo at babawi din ako when i have spare time. and thanks so much for the prayers and kind concern. we are hoping that things will be well for my mom soon. sige at kwentuhan tayo mamaya, God bless 😉

  12. Pinky · June 18, 2008

    Will continue praying for your Mom, Nell. Our God is good and compassionate – He will definitely bring healing to you and your family… Take care always and God bless!

    thank you, dear. we’ve always been hopeful that God would show mercy upon us and heal my mothers illness. thanks again for all the love and prayers. God bless you, too 😀

  13. Meeya · June 27, 2008

    nell, you know naman how much you have my prayers and support. i can’t even begin to imagine how it must be for you. pero i know you and your mom are made of strong stock, kaya if anybody can triumph over this, its you. 🙂

    hugs nell, you know i’m always here if you need an ear to listen. take care!

    thanks for the extra boost of morale, sis meeya. sabi nga nila, it is during these tough times that true friends are found. thanks for being a wonderful and supportive friend. love yah, mwaaah 🙂

  14. Jo · September 19, 2008

    Miracle happen and it does at times that you do not expect… be it a miracle of life or a miracle of love or a miracle of an eternal peace from within…

    my prayer goes for your mother and for you…

  15. sardonicnell · September 19, 2008

    thank you so much, sis josie. every single day mom has, is a miracle for us. and we’re very thankful for each day. thanks for the all the love and prayers. mwaaah 😀

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