I got a phone call at 1:34 PM today, that my beloved cousin (more like a sister) died in her sleep early this morning. I was shocked in disbelief, cause in my head I can still picture her alive, with this big bright smile on her face. I must be in denial, subjecting myself to not face the painful reality. You see, she’s been battling the Big C (breast cancer) for quite sometime now and somehow I knew it was coming, one way or another. And yet, I was still unprepared. I found myself staring at the office window, saying — this is not true, this is not real…
God looked down on your body,
So tired from hanging on,
From a life that was overwhelming you,
And wanted back His child.
So he took away the air you breathe,
And gave you what was best,
A place to be at peace,
A final place to rest.
She said to me not too long ago, no tears when I die. But I can’t help it, I needed to let my sorrows out. Her departure has left me helpless and in pain. Life would never be the same without her. I lost a cousin, a sister and a friend…
I love you so much and I promise to always keep your memory alive in my heart and in my thoughts. I promise to pick up the pieces of your wonderful life and make them my own. You need not worry about your beautiful kids, as we’ll try and raise them to be good and kindhearted people like there mother. And I promise to always remind them of your infinite love and grace. May your sweet loving soul find peace and solace in heaven. I will miss you, Ate Bing!