First and Last…

I promise that after this, I will shut up! I just need to freaking express myself, even for one last time…

The words
are snaring round
trapping you in
now how are you
to distinguish
the truth from the lie
the deception
has gone on
for far too long
there is no way out
you can’t ever
know when
the lies
are spewing
so be
remember everything
then one day
you’ll catch it…

And then tell me, how much it hurts?Β 

If Only



  1. joy · February 1, 2008

    Hey! What’s going on here? To whom are you expressing yourself? πŸ˜€

    A Pinay In England
    Your Love Coach
    The Goddess In You

  2. sardonicnell · February 1, 2008

    hello joy. let’s just say it’s an expression of a scorned lover, hahaha πŸ˜‰

  3. Meeya · February 1, 2008

    nell? not teddy, i hope. or is it? naku pag sinaktan ka niya sasaktan ko rin siya. i know kung fu. hmp!

    ps: natatawa ako, tuwing magpo-post ako ng comment, pagka-refresh ng page, iba-iba ang template, hahaha! feeling ko nasa twilight zone ako. πŸ˜€

  4. sardonicnell · February 1, 2008

    i can hide the truth behind a shadow, but nothing can conceal the fact that HE did hurt me and my family. and yes meeya, it’s HIM i’m pertaining to 😦 but be rest assured dear, i’m fine now. i just had to let it out one last time…

    ps: sis, iganti mo naman ako. just kidding πŸ˜‰ naku pasensya ka na at di mapakali ang bakla sa kong anong theme ang gagamitin, hehehehe πŸ˜€

  5. Leap of Faith! · February 1, 2008

    Nell, so sorry to hear what is happening to you now.

  6. sardonicnell · February 1, 2008

    thank you, keith. but don’t you guys worry, i’m okay. just needed to let it out before i eventually explode. eka nga nila, eh emotional release eto. pero okay po ako, promise. nalungkot lang talaga ako cause my family seems quite affected by what HE did. that’s all. in time, everything will be alright. and as you can see here, i’m trying to keep the positive vibe alive. have a great week end πŸ˜‰

  7. Pinky · February 2, 2008

    Hope this will finally let all the hurt out of your system so you could move on. I just feel bad that he wasn’t “THE ONE” pa pala… Anyway, just take comfort in the fact that you at least saw the not-so-good side of him early on. Keep the faith, Nell, the best is surely yet to come πŸ™‚

  8. sardonicnell · February 2, 2008

    yes, pinky. this will be the first and last, then i can have laugh at my dumbness. it’s better na rin that this happen, at least i know better not to be too or easily persuaded to trust someone. and thanks so much for the kind words my dear. i am confident that indeed — the best is yet to come. love yah lots πŸ˜‰

  9. ann · February 2, 2008

    Hello Nell! Sorry to hear about what happened. I hope ok ka na. Buti na lang may blog kahit papaano pang release ng sama ng loob. TC.

    BTW, ok na ip ko sa wordpress. Thanks for the reply sa email nga pala.

  10. sardonicnell · February 2, 2008

    hello ann. oo nga, buti nalang talaga eh may blog where we can release our frustration. hehehehe! thanks so much for sympathizing hah. but come to think of it, i don’t think i have anything to be sorry for. if there was anyone who should be, eh that would be HIM. taray ng sagot ko, dba? hahahaha! thanks again, ann and glad to hear that your ip’s okay now. have a great week end πŸ˜€

  11. thess · February 3, 2008


    hugs to u, Nell.

  12. sardonicnell · February 3, 2008

    thanks for the sweet warm embrace, i really needed that badly sa ganitong araw na malamig at walang katabi. hahahah! love yah lots, mwaaah πŸ˜‰

  13. joy · February 3, 2008

    A scorned lover…. sounds like you need to visit Your Love Coach. πŸ˜€ Go on. You know you want to πŸ˜€

    A Pinay In England
    The Goddess In You
    Norwich Daily Photo

  14. sardonicnell · February 3, 2008

    i was just kidding, joy. i’m no scorned lover, just a bit pissed about it. hahahah! don’t you worry, i’ll run my love worries by you should i need some advice. thanks for your kind offer, mwaaah πŸ˜€

  15. cee cee boom · February 5, 2008

    i dont want to tell you this, but didn’t i told you so. kalat kaya sa office ang balita. but glad it’s over, darating din si thomas sa buhay mo. kaya abangan!

  16. sardonicnell · February 5, 2008

    ayayay, sarap mong sakalin cecilia. tama bang ibalandra pa yan sa mukha ko. pero tama ka, it’s over. as for thomas, wala pa akong balak. susme, kakayurak lang ng hearties ko hah πŸ˜‰

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