And He Won’t Leave Me Alone

I left for the beach house on a Friday night, there was just so many things going inside my head. I had to leave to calm myself down and the ocean would be a perfect place to do just that. So I got in my car and drove a good three hours, by midnight I was able to make it to my destination. The house was empty, just as I want it. Mom and Dad Aldo are both gone for the week end.

By the time I got there, I was tired and ready to retire. I took some sleeping aid and I was fast asleep. It’s better that I’m snoozing rather than having all these sad thoughts. I woke up the next morning feeling a little better. I then made myself some breakfast and took a walk by the beach.  And for some reason I found myself staring at the wide open ocean. I wasn’t looking at anything in particular, and for the first time in two days — I felt a bit of relief.

A couple hours later as I was doing some yoga poses, I saw a guy walking towards my direction. I wasn’t wearing my glasses, but I thought the man looks familiar. And as he was getting closer, I realized it was Ted. He didn’t look to happy to see me and he has every right to be. I’ve been avoiding his phone calls for the past two days, as I wasn’t feeling normal enough to talk to anyone at that moment. I turned my phone off and decided to deal with my calls later. You see I have this tendency to shut my doors when I’m in distress, and I do that as to not inflict harm to the people around me. I have all the pure intentions and I know not everyone would be understanding. But that is the price I have to pay for protecting the people I care for. I’m the kind of person who’d take an arrow for somebody I love and by locking myself when I’m self destructive is my way of showing my most unconditional devotion. Besides that, I’m much better at solving problems on my own. And Ted was no excemption, I didn’t want to drag him in my netherworld and I’d hate for him to see me all powerless.

Ted: What are you doing in this place by yourself?

Nell: You’re here now. So that means I’m not just by myself.

Ted: Why won’t you answer my phone calls?

Nell: Please Ted, not right now. This is exactly the reason why I didn’t answer my phone.

Ted: Why are you acting like a b**ch?

Nell: Because I am! And by the way, who told you that I’m here?

Ted: Your sister, she said you might be here at your Mom’s.

Forgive me, but I can be unkind when I’m dispirited. In my heart, I know Ted means well and he didn’t deserve my nasty remarks. It’s but an attempt to persuade him to leave and spare him from all these unpleasantries. And it’s not because I didn’t want him in my life either, I didn’t want him to see me weak and disarmed. But then he sat right beside me and started playing with the sand. Looks like this is going to take a while.

Ted: If you think that I’m leaving anytime soon. You’re up for some serious  disappointment! I am not leaving till you talk to me and tell me what’s going on.

Nell: Not now, Ted. Please, I just want to be left alone. That is all!

Ted: You are one horrible liar, do you know that?

Nell: Accused me of anything you want, just give me some space.

Thirty minutes has passed and he was still in the same spot. There’s no way of talking him out of this. By the time he lied on the sand and saw this duffle bag with him, I figured out that he’s not leaving. So it’s either I start talking or I should be the one to pack my bags. Five minutes of deep breaths, I decided to just spill my guts.

Nell: What do you want to know, Ted?

Ted: Why did you leave? Why are you acting this way?

Nell: If I tell you, do you promise to leave me alone?

Ted: No, I’ve decided to stay for the night. Tell me all about it over dinner. I brought some food with me.

I’m guessing he planned all this, from his visit down to dinner. By that time we finished arguing, it started getting cold. And Ted suggested that we start heading for the cottage. He grabbed me by the hand and pulled me up from the ground. He didn’t let go after, we were walking back to my Mom’s house and I was punching him on the arm so he’d let my hands go. But he was stronger and peevish, he wouldn’t leave me alone!

To be continued…



  1. Pinky · November 5, 2007

    Sigh, that’s love! 🙂 Things are definitely looking up, Nell. Hang in there!

  2. sardonicnell · November 5, 2007

    hello pinky, i’m getting better and thanks to friends who have the utmost concern (like you guys). i know ted means well and the reason why he came was because he loves me. i guess i just didn’t want him seeing me this way. big turn off dba? thanks for the encouragement, God bless 😀

  3. Jen · November 5, 2007

    did u take that picture!? LOVE THE VIEW.

    and wow, you’ve got yourself a keeper 😀

  4. sardonicnell · November 5, 2007

    hi jen, most of the time eh ganito ang view at the beach house. you’ve been to monterey county I-1? that’s where this photo was taken, they call it the 17 mile drive. it’s very scenic, promise!

    i guess nakikiramay ang panahon at karagatan sa nararamdaman ko, hehehe. been praying that ted won’t have eyes for anyone else but just me, landicious ko noh? hahahah :mrgreen:

  5. Meeya · November 7, 2007

    i’ve been there. its just so breathtakingly beautiful… but not as beautiful as the guy who came after you.

    more… more…

  6. sardonicnell · November 7, 2007

    hello meeya. touch naman ako sa comment mo, hehehe! it was really sweet of TED to follow, and i couldn’t thank him enough for helping me come back to life. i promise more kilig entries, as TED did something special again for me this morning :mrgreen:

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