I don’t like going out on week days, specially if it’s a club event. I think I’m already passed that party- all-night stage, I prefer the quiet life now. But Ken was insistent that I come along as it’s our friends birthday bash. At Randy’s request I went along. ( Oww! And if she’s reading this she’ll probably kill me. I forgot, she’s no longer Randy but Cassandra. Hahaha! She’s been nip tucked from head to foot. The complete overhaul as we call it. No clues that she was once a man. I say, good for her for following her heart and a job well done! )
But now that I’ve been exposed to gay clubs and seen all these gorgeous gay men throwing themselves on the dance floor. I can’t help but reminisce and look back at those years when my night life was at it’s peak. That sometime before, I was one of those guys dancing the night away from one club to another. I had my days, too. When I was around all these good looking men, getting wasted and not knowing what happened the next day. A life I wouldn’t want to relive, that’s for sure.
I can’t believe how shallow I was before, add the words like reckless and retarded to describe my social indiscretion. I’d wake up at some strangers room and sometimes a hotel in the middle of La-La-Land. I do all these for the sake of interim pleasure. I was never an attractive person or will I ever be, but I had my ways to lure them in my trap. Definitely, it is not something I can brag about. For it was a mistake from the very beginning. Some sort of offense, a crime againts my principles and moral values.
Then came a time when I got tired of living a foolish life. I wanted change, and so I did the adult thing. All of a sudden I was craving for the intangible, I wanted to be reborn. So, I bid farewell to night life, lust and all the pretty boys (and men). It was tough, but I was motivated to live better. Beauty can be intoxicating and pleasure, can be habit forming; like some sort of drug. But my mind is set, I had to fulfill my purpose. That is to live and be happy with the people that truly matters. Those that are capable of caring and loving unconditionally.
Just remember, there is more to life than a pretty face and fleeting gratification!